Good, Bad, Crazy.

Well the good news is, we officially have our photographers for our wedding next June! So excited. They are WONDERFUL artists, and even more wonderful people. It's crazy how everything about them matched to the tiniest detail of what we were looking for in photographers. I'd like to take this as a sign that things will work out this time. Fingers crossed and praying hard.

The bad news is, well...there's not really much "bad" news. Just...crazy circumstances. I'll never understand some people. I'll never understand the need to create problems and discomfort where neither existed before. Unfortunately, this wouldn't be the first time this has happened with a certain individual. But I can guarantee that it will be the last time. I've taken and taken and taken from these people without saying anything for the past four years. I've watched this one particular person lie and cheat and manipulate in the worst ways to get what they want. I'm not going to stand by and take anymore without sticking up for myself and for us.  

Of course, I want to do so in a way that is as kind as possible, but I'm afraid that things may not end on a nice note. If that happens, so be it. All I can do is ask forgiveness.

Things are interesting lately, obviously. 

Sigh. 

Just another day in the life.

Inside.

You're in there.

You never left.

You won't ever leave.

I think that's part of why this hurts so badly.


I wish your story didn't include this chapter. I wish you could have lived happier ever after.

I wish I had the chance to say thank you. It's my biggest regret in life. I guess that's why I make sure I say it too often, almost. I cherish you. I cherish my time with you. I hope you love me the way I love you.

I would do anything to break this spell. To reconnect the circuit. To fix what is broken. To find a cure to this terrible horrible, AWFUL thing that has taken your spunk and your dignity. I would give you anything you needed to make this stop. To reverse it so that you would wake up and be okay. I love you so much. Nothing makes me happier than to see you happy. I always want you to be happy.

I love you nana.